(98) Believing is achieving lets break some barriers and start saving lives today

perrin41@aol.com 

From:perrin41@aol.com

To:PERRIN PEREZ

Sat, Sep 7 at 6:03 AM

It is important to report my experience. In 2022 what I am experiencing was not taking place because Luna did not have the resources of his job available to him. It is how he uses these resources from what I am experiencing now that are dangerous and that is a concern, because if it is happening to me, I am sure that others are experiencing this as well. The difference is I am aware of where it is coming from due to the longevity, due to my observing and keeping track patterns at a broad range connecting events as a whole ever since that I pinpointed this is the person responsible. Also, my education understanding the personality and emotion of disgust to where compelled to act on his own accord in these measures. What exactly well I believe outlaw practices, the idea to condemn someone on his own account which is away from the principles of democracy taking matters into his own hands trying to be a one man show.

I said it again a cleansing program, but if you look at the mind set no moral conscience, no empathy, no remorse, that the person is disconnected from being externally driven making a claim of wanting to get into this career at 18 because of bad cops that he seen on the streets. Today underground and behind the scenes he is not being fair and true to his word to take orchestrate behind the scenes practices that are unethical or viewing people as who belongs or who doesn’t on his own accord then acting on it. This is bad because his mind is not healthy exclusionary practices of this nature do not come from a good place. I can explain human consciousness specifically from these experiences seeing the worst of someone else's behaviors in ways I could never imagine. Then the contrast of my own since I have unconditional love and do not judge others, nor I find it incapable to hate even while being treated like this. Once again retribution immediately surely from an email that I sent to myself due to fear of retribution from speaking to myself I my home of the negativity of these practices that have benn adapted and long going from this individual. Scary right like Trumpism.

This morning 3:00 am woke up feeling awkward. Yesterday coming from taking my neighbor from the doctor we detoured around the long way to get food for us. Now this morning scratching skin in other symptoms. The man is following a protocol to get rid of people I am sure of it, to cause them cancer, and switching us between things like glucophosphate, light caustic agents, and God only knows what else. Hunting people down and making hits on them. It is not right it is not fair. In 2007 this started taking place that I experienced in a big way, and it was not a surprise to me when I heard that he was promoted to deputy chief that year.

Is this part of a program Long Beach adapted in 2004 that was part of a broken windows policing program that New York adapted 25 years ago, but since the administration here has not changed that it is still taking place.

I do not want problems but do not want to die prematurely due to careless activities of others that are wreckless and in a bad state of mind that they would or even could view others to dehumanize them, teat them inhumanely by acting underground in a terrorist way that disregards human rights. Someone that see’s others as not belonging and will twist things and manipulate peoples life's in a way to push their agenda.

Once I recognized this extreme and where it is coming from, and seeing others close to me being targeted I started a blog because it became so extreme in 2018 that I pinpointed where it was coming from. I experienced betrayel trauma; psycho educated myself to understand it day in and day out started playing the guitar to stay sane and for something to look forward too away from the pain that I am experiencing. In his retirement year off he did not have the resources and the practice declined as far as trying to take people out. Instead he wanted to show his police work like he mentioned at the primary so he was trying to get it from anywhere he could. Neither here nor there, I made a email yesterday about a healthy mind and a mind that can be compromised from two much stress and developing or not base on if a person has experienced too much stress in one’s early life (even attachment) People that have a graduated case of narcissism like malignant narcissism studies have shown to experience ambivalent disorganized or avoidant attachment style.  I posted in a blog a while back with a link to a video. Obviously where does the behaviors of this individual stack up? I was raised by an individual that was with this organization, a batboy of the softball team would hang out after the games and often go to Abbies with them this stuff hurts so I have went the exrtra mile with ideas and protocols of my own from my experiences of an insider and an outsider. The difference is in a healthy mindset one of a generative drive to give back because I care, not a drive from despair that is selfish, greedy and hateful. I have an awesome mind I want to give back help people get on track and live better lives all across the board at the micro and macro level. What I have experienced is beyond the grail of evil and comes from absolute insanity and something needs to be done before more minds get screwed up, more lives get destroyed, and before these practices get more extreme because they  will as we are witnessing. I am on it even though it may be difficult to tell when someone presents one way, but underneath and what is not seen presents entirely in another way. Which he would have to deny defend and lie if what presents is away from the duties of the job, and are inhumane and even criminally minded and dehumanize others. This needs to change. It may be too late for me to live the life I have reinforced myself wanting to live day in and day out which just allows for an unstoppable goal in the force of strength of will, hope in chasing your dreams in life. That is till your oppressed and have your name smeared in an effort to halt this progress. Terrible then the toxic encounters, and even the stress of the reward prediction error being negative when my pursuits are only imagined but never gained in what I experience as pure torture being restrained with so much to offer and so much to share with a significant other that is now nowhere which is not fair. All because of someone else who just does not care, but I did care because I did not let my suffering go in vain. I looked within became stronger, wiser, and now have a better understanding of so much, and in so many ways that were part of my studies these experiences, and to learn of real-world issues as a result of both that can be worked on and addressed at the micro and macro level interdependently with others which can make for real world change. I is not about you or me it is about our future; believing is achieving.