Crises of hatred, pathology, and mental health

https://youtu.be/WaVTX0f19rc?si=MRuC1Rg8CZ3kkPJ8

This press conference in front of a medical care center was cut short when a question was asked about the officer that had died previously worked for Long Beach PD. Only worked there for eight months at LBPD. The night before last I was raising concern about how this individual at 23 upon completion of the academy here in LB, what maybe caused him to leave his job here, and how 4 years later it'd looked like he was a 20-year veteran. Like he'd undergone major stress in his time away then and it took to be getting married to get enough steam to return to trying another go at the career. Leslie Murray retired chief from Downey had mentioned cadets in her department about the need for their having to develop yet. She must with a degree in sociology, had stuck with research about social development and the neuroscience that the brain does not completely develop till you are 25 years old. Kudo's to her right? Nonetheless, when this neural development does not take place due to a cumulative amount of stress in early life, because if the frontal cortex takes too many hits, it will not come online. What does this look like?

Lack of an ability to acquire intellectual and emotional maturity and the lack of development where the potential to function at the capacity of an adult is missed. Briefly, being susceptible to a lack of emotional regulation due to too much stress a person may be in a negative state of apathy to where they are disengaged from looking within, say morally to make ethical rational decisions that are a part of and necessary for this crucial stage (social emotional learning) context and dialogue process of knowledge which is the cognitive ability to learn, cope and regulate emotion. What does it look like from a mental health standpoint when this stage of development does not take place. Not covering the many aspects here, but for one is being disinhibited, experiencing a disconnect, maladaptive stress response, lack of frontal regulation, low reinforcement values and expectancies, external locus of control, and ventromedial frontal cortex damage. The latter part here is a major concern when someone can say something is wrong but not be able to regulate behavior from doing so and act in the behavior and not think there is anything wrong with it. One example would be cognitive bias acting in hatred towards others autonomically from a pathological state of apathy but be disconnected from seeing that it is wrong and even oblivious to how others are affected from your very own actions.

What is my point? It is not difficult to see someone not being engaged with reality. Further, it would be difficult to argue that in this realm of existence that an individual would maybe be living in a way that is unrealistically impossible. So, what extremes would persist would have to consider the degree of pathology [doing all the wrong things for all the wrong reasons) (clusters of maladaptive behavior that reinforce one another)] based on what behaviors present and how long a person has been functioning maladaptively. Surely, other contributable factors would be early environment, cumulative effect of stress, cascade of development issues or not, and if the individual is functioning at the capacity of an adult brain as correlated to the degree of being intellectually and emotionally mature or not.

Obviously, I have kept a blog Perrin41.com about the extremism I have experienced in the realm of a gotcha culture in the form of a hit squad in which I experience attacks on my health in the form of a transcendent mission of a group with me being the target(which is why I am writing this ) which I just experienced again today/tonight. Also, the post hoc rationalizing in the form of constant smear campaign tactics to show see I am right. Pretty childish in fact it is immoral behavior that not even consistent with Kollberg's pre conventional moral reasoning (to follow the rules because you do not want to get caught. It is not difficult to see that I am an empathic person that is caught up in what mimics a narcissistic abuse cycle that has literally went on for decades. Which going on for decades, not caring, a ordinate subordinate relationship, and the violent nature of the assaults directed at me are all consistent with extreme narcissistic behavior.

The realization may be difficult for a person to see that acts deviant in immoral thinking that if I can get away with it and not get caught then it is ok, that is even if it is away from the professional responsibility that I am supposed to uphold, and even if it is in contrast to the very image (split personality) that I want some to see brazen and bold and for others that cannot know. Not hard to see the pathology. the greedy selfish, apathetic nature of this mind that has lost all control. This is the very problem and that the extreme need to micromanage, to control. the retribution, the delusional thinking, and the unrealistic means of expectations placed upon others to the degree of no damage control is dangerous, people are getting hurt and this person cannot connect the dots by any means in which to be self-aware and to see it.  

Where extreme practices that I experience directed at the schizophrenic individual that killed officer Clickenbroomer? 

I noticed a major escalation of tactics directed towards me all underground, unethical, inhumane, and cruel that caused stress in-between the time that the officers in Palmdale were relieved from their duty in Palmdale after the lady was punched in a drunk driver involved with a person that did not have baby seats in the car and the time that Officer Clickenbroomer had died. After the officers were relieved of their duties in Palmdale Luna got comfortable for the core tendencies of his personality to start unfolding and as stress increases so does the extremes of the views and the behaviors. My dad’s best friend was killed in the line of duty may dad was working the shift that night. He was a family friend maybe I am sensitive to these issues. I am not oblivious to the threat that is being imposed towards me and where it is coming from though. This is why I am observing this individual and am so aware I have experienced betrayal trauma from cruelness and have psycho educated myself, which is an example of what a person does that is intellectually emotionally mature and functioning at the capacity of a developed adult brain responding to inhumane treatment.

Also the harsh practice towards cadets to make or break them would the officer in the attached video above be alive today and still be working in Long Beach if conditions (i.e., underground tied to the pathology and unrealistic practices) after he graduated the academy and working as a developing cadet were not so harsh cruel and unrealistic to the degree that the guy left probably experiencing, trauma, rejection and high levels of stress?

 What I am experiencing myself is the equivalent of genocide and it’s not right.

On Wednesday, December 31, 2025 at 05:02:00 AM PST, perrin41@aol.com <perrin41@aol.com> wrote:

Luna gets the power grab 3 years in the job still punking and bullying. Seems like retribution is a big part as a second run as his being in a place of power unfolds. He wasn't this extreme the first year there nor in the years in LB as chief. Should it be of any surprise? Just a personality unfolding.