(120) Daily experience post from email and follow-up

Email from 4/2/25 in black, new additions from this weeks experience is in red.

One thing I experience is side effects waking early the earlier the harder or worse the side effect the higher the level of whatever was ingested. Tie someone to a group and seek to get rid of them for being tied to a group is the definition of genocide. Are there smear campaigns geared to label or stereotype Perrin to a group. Like post-hoc rationalizing see see I am right. Then the hate retribution thing I mention here.

I posted about first principles and constitutional rights, also effective vs. ineffective leadership and how organizations can get ran into the ground. I also mentioned that the organization is really a component of employees that follow suit to the person in charge, which really is the person in charge that will be a predictor if an organization and its people stay grounded or not. Inclusion versus exclusionary practices id a vision that comes from the type of lens a person looks through. This degree will be complex to understand since now the mind is getting involved. Really if you think of it a leader is a protector of the mind depending on how well he regulated lets say emotionally. The previous video discussed the importance of handling stress and job pressures, including how a leader manages high arousal and limited restraint.

The negative type of practice can be a dispositional issue that cause situational problems. David McCleland from Harvard 1966 studies reveal a Leader motivational syndrome LMS Type. There are three types for the purpose of this article It is the power model that would have attributions to the types of behaviors that I have constantly experienced for very many years now. The LMS type is highly disagreeable, expects blind loyalty, are not happy people, and like to beat people down. The experiences are obviously long enduring traits since these experiences started taking place in 2007, yes thats right you heard that correctly. Of course, the away from a professional responsibility it goes beyond the food drink controlling people, but also another form of retribution is smear campaigns geared toward an intent to harm with these practices. all this a form of negative reinforcement which can be seen as extrinsically motivated due to is someone was intrinsically motivated there would be conscientiousness and personal accountability to not act and treat others in such a manner. Really gets into the mind and can get deep and complex here for a deeper understanding of being and the how’s and whys and individual differences of human behavior. One thing the LMS type traits, core tendency to behave can be seen in personality disorders that are synonymous with the behaviors and types of practices that I have been experiencing underground. Should be a major red flag due to the type and degree of personality differences that llke in psychopathy is seen as a disease state rather than a personality disorder. This is due to what they present in behaviors and views towards others is evil dehumanizing, inhumane and unethical. Waking up at 3 am shopping at ralphs market in Lakewood, CA, How these practices evolved to be so organized, but it is immoral as well as cruel and against God given inalienable constitutional right because how is a person supposed to survive if they cannot get food safely to take care of themselves.

Another concern I have is to the extent of hunting people down to what other extent do they go in aggravating hatred outwards to what they do not like? Medical care and access totally isolate a person?

Being ostracized is a form of emotional abuse but like they say of the narcissist personality they isolate others their victims just like being micro-managed and a personality disorder that has OCD would have a lowered restraint. Kind of explains the quick retribution, the narcissist abuse cycle me keeping tabs of these events even though like the latest blog really was about safety for the very people that a leader (which would allow for these type of practices) is responsible for and his employees he is to protect. This goes along with citizens for those in control of themselves rather than serve ones own self in a bunch of insane horrible ways that just exemplify absolute need for power and control of others. This bullshit will never stop due to a lack of an ability to act anything different but a form of retribution and hatred that brings about excessive force and cruelty Bob. Maybe you should have a hobby and be training like running this is a good idea you can join your team at the Baker to Vegas this year. Living a lie Paranoia some sad stuff. Keep it from spreading because people cannot function at this degree and be something better. People in society and within the organization should never have to go through and experience the exploitation and manipulation that stems from an entanglement of delusion, pathology, and confusion.

Maladaptively functioning the pathology is guaranteed to get nothing but worse. Harvard psychologist Daniel Goleman explains, when a person cannot put their focus where it needs to be meaning cannot see a future instead living only for the moment that this is due to right OFC pathway cortical subcortical region pathway orbital frontal cortex to limbic area is offline. This epigenetic change is a disconnect (amygdala hijack) physiological response from too much stress, which the working memory is offline, and a person cannot learn. Frustration and tension then see a person that is the LMS type but even more rigid; it is all about him or retribution. Rigidity can be from a cascade of development issues, contribute to an authoritarian leadership style and if the development issues are not addressed, they say things that are rigid break, people are the same the breaking point one may see sadistic authoritarian style psychopathy and evil. Well, that is why I am adding this as a follow-up from experiences (see below) of an email follow-up is only posted to my email. But it will be seen and read and I will get more retribution but was going to get more retribution anyways because these are daily practices and needs for a personality to be fulfilled.

Upon retirement it will be much more difficult when the resources from a job aren't there for you to fulfill your personality. Studies show that when the alpha male steps down from his position at the top of the hierarchy that frustration and tension sets in in the form of stress, and that this is one of the biggest contributors to displaced aggression. I noted in 2022 experiencing this in blogs. I know one thing whether it be an inflated ego that needs more gratification that once retiring the more he keeps doubling down now the need of addiction gets worse as these extremes get worse. If he could maintain some sense of control now less withdrawals later. Upon retirement it will be that much more difficult to find inner peace when the resources from the job aren't there for you to fulfill your personality from the very tools; people you hate to the abuse cycle against those you must control, to the extreme practice you use to do so. Once groups form within form the validation for reinforcement of a sense of superiority this external validation is another something this person will not be able to live without. Another reason polarized ideologies, extreme behaviors and extreme practices exist. Hate is never good, reinforcing it daily is the denigration of the mind. 

 The inability to self-reflect is not there I get it. so here is a suggestion from a person that has high self-awareness and self- reflects daily even in journaling like this. You are going to have to seek help when you retire due to the denigration of the mind, disconnect, lack of self-regulation, and the inability to function normally at the neural level (intrinsic motivation). Reason why leaders make a difference tohelp others to be something better or worse. Therefore, it would be easier for your own self and everyone else if you just go seek professional help right now. This is not gaslighting this is the God honest truth find your inner peace allow others to thrive and have theirs as well. This is the reciprocity that makes the world a better place the hate and aggression needs to stop.

Another test this email will stay just as that an email and I will even erase the email if self-control can be exhibited and no smear campaigns or no in-group violence of these practices I speak of and no other forms of retribution are displayed or experienced towards me.

If I experience any of this I will continue this email in with a follow-up connected to the adverse behaviors of my experience to further explanations through the studies connected to the behavioral neurosciences and I will Post the updated version with is email to my blog at perrin41.

I have said this before and there is always just like the reason why I am writing this a backlash of a negative response I predict this time as well. Keep in mind the recent negative experience was in Lakewood, CA.

The red font above is added material to the original email that I sent to myself on Wednesday April 2, 2025. Here at the end of my original email is a follow-up on 4/7/25 that I added the material in red too was done partially to explain the emotional dysregulation and risky behaviors taken place since the email. My cat that was healthy has died instantly from an internal issue. I supply water and have a hard time accessing this without problems for my own self without set back or symptoms as a side effect of drinking it. Poor Jess trouble is I am the one being targeted “the gotcha culture” but have seen him have negative experiences he got stuck in the middle just like me. I tried so hard to take good care of this cat. Never hissed, never growled, never bit, nothing but love to give friendliest cat with a personality you’d ever meet. Malicious still I had erased this email and just sent myself a copy in fear of retribution, which this was a high hope even though I mentioned in the email this what I am experiencing is a daily way of life, hunt down the target us against them kick ass thing is a style of leadership from dispositional factors that I can unpack for you.

Being a highly self-aware, self-reflective individual, I have done a lot of soul searching and have experienced a lot of personal gain through understanding and deeper meaning since Jess passed which I found him Friday afternoon at 2:00 pm when returning from work. Shady, and this was very sad for me being isolated like I have been the cat has been with me for 12 years through thick and thin and been a loyal companion. I told him this before going to work and that you better not die on me that your all I have. I’ve been feeling it and am still being targeted the same way. Like I have said in past posts, and that I still do fear for my safety, especially now things are getting very crazy, crazier than ever. Another of what Goleman explains is hyper focused on fear and threat in a symbolic context like using metaphors due to the inability to see the big picture. A concern is the working memory being off line and being compromised in learning both contribute to comprehension of issues, also affects the ability for a  person will have healthy coping skills or not and when these pathways of reinforcement are disconnected and the OFC is disinhibited the concept of self without higher self-consciousness the person lacks controlled thinking of an internal dialogue due to the OFC being off line that is the executive center of the brain th tool thee mind uses as the organizational tool like Jonathan haidts  explains in his concept of self-coherence or cognitive strain there will be internal contradictions where a person does not understand themselves.

How many more people have to get hurt before recognizing when a person is struggling with a mental health to a degree of pathology that they are doing all the wrong things for the wrong reasons and you see it when acting in a way that is extreme and that contrast’s the way they are expected to uphold their duties that they are responsible for. One thing I seen in the closet where Jess went to hide in where he died was a transcript I had 22 a’s and three b’s that I transferred from LBCC then took I believe 18 classes at CSULB to finish the BA in psychology. I had a 100% completion ratio I dug deep, I have a strong will, I worked hard, I set a goal, I had gratitude for my life. I wanted to learn how it all connects to gain the ability to give back see others find a higher place of happiness and contentment, so they could be motivated to get the most out of their lives. I love to study, and the significance and purpose of living in a way that makes the world a better place and putting in the hard work to have the ability to do so is rewarding. I do not sidestep anything, and I place service to others above myself naturally yet as a priority. I am here and ready to go, to continue this endeavor at a time where people, the country, and even the world couldn’t need it more.