(114) Expecting a tirade of backlash after the last post see attached post from a specialist of narcissist personality disorder to understand why.

The following link to a Dr. Les Carter podcast explains why Mr. Luna has been trying to micromanage and silence me.

For the purpose of this constant hunt down I left a blog yesterday. Now expecting backlash for this post about being objective and the need to find deeper meaning for development purposes and to form a solid core identity. well, it is being a truth teller and guess what you can bet

The micromanaging, manipulation, smear campaign and hate will keep going especially after the last post.

There is going to be no looking within, instead, just a emotionally dysregulated, angry, aggressive, backlash

that's for sure. this video explains why: 12 minutes

https://youtu.be/GzBBuMvqK3E?si=Ry2iuLJKCWlOptnV

Tuesday Feb. 18 1;00 AM in the morning

Bad experience Sunday night stomach hurting then all day Monday kind of out of it laying around all day didn't work, didn't play the guitar, nothing stomach is still hurting tonight as I write this follow-up. What did I expected this after writing what I felt was a constructive post you three days ago.

I was reading some articles and interviews from Charlie Beck, I thought it was cool he used to keep a motocross helmet in his office at work. He had raced when younger and kept it as a hobby even later in life. Motocross 2nd toughest sport on the planet next to soccer they say anyhow. Definitely after all the racing I did before, during, and after high school every week was a big part of my life, and a major character sculpting experience, This sport will make you mentally and physically tough. I worked during this time and if I wanted to race I had to buy the motorcycles and pay for the entry fee's all of it. Jarrod Spencer's book Mind of the Athlete specifies the importance of having hobbies that are important to you and how important this is for your mind. I enjoyed reading up on Mr. Beck and his discussing thing's of what he learned regarding the dynamics of his police work experience in, of, and how he'd felt about his career at the LAPD. One thing he'd mentioned was the importance he felt of leaving the organization better than when he'd arrived there. I can see this since as he invested a lot of time there and was paid a lot so I think it is great he belied in his work there and upon his retiring that he left the organization better than for worse.

Well the character I am not sure of the outlaw practices being used from the man that has had it out for me since being promoted in 2007 and still does, difficult to believe. I have mentioned it before that Villaneuva stated that he had set a policy in place prohibiting the use of outlaw practices, and that he did so because he wanted to do the right thing. The new person come in claiming to address the issue with tatoos and deputy gangs, but not sure that using outlaw practices is going underground and ganging up on people, which surely is not making the organization better than when Villanueva was there. He'd specifically was concerned about constituional rights being broken for Angelinos with this new person coming in to take his job and also feared that the principles of democracy would be being broken.