(91) For those that struggle with the worst personality on the planet

Understanding the behavioral, environmental, neurophysiological, and psychochemical attributes to those that struggle with personality disorders especially in a compounded states like psychopathy is to understand the root cause. This objective way of going about things allows is crucial for preventing environments that lead to dysfunction, but to allow for space when a person has experienced negative environments early on when behaviors present so that a people can get out of toxic environments that do not allow for positive development to take place. This is important because the sooner you can treat and address the negative implications a person has experienced in their lives the sooner healing can take place to be on the road to recovery. The attached podcast, "A Nameless Dread: Understanding Psychotic-Level NPD" offers insight into what those that struggle with psychopathy have to experience, and why they become so compromised at such a high degree.

I believe this is like my 87th blog in some 3 years due to being ran through hell and absolutely still living it. A target and not a dam thing wrong but someone in a state of mind that just cannot get past the compulsive need to act out belligerently behind the scenes. The attached podcast is the best objective compilation that under close observation that I can come up to understand what compels a person to act in such a demeanor. Just like hate it all subsides from within, but the obsession and the degree of acting towards someone underground in a way that is every bit in contrast to the professional responsibility that one gets paid to and even in the dignity of humanity towards others that person should uphold towards others yet is so compelled otherwise and just misses the mark every time. Woke up 2;00 Am suddenly due to having adverse effects once again, so I got straight up and came in here to write what was on my mind. I was expecting it the arousal is high any holiday for the polarized ideologies to come about and be acted out in extremes through group members. For them it is an externally driven social validation fest done so at the expense of others. Sounds like what we constantly have heard of and read about in the events in history and this I am experiencing is no different.

I am compelled as well just in a more enlightened humane way one that comes about from the Deveopment of self over time. The studies I am engaged in are all about understanding affect (emotion/feeling) and the effect that social emotional learning in the development stages all through life bring out individual differences that contribute to the best and even the worst behavior of the human organism. The context and complexity of the human condition in the neuroscience of behavior is so rich in detail it is easy to depict where an individual is compromised and where anther is not regardless of how fouled up some people can make it in the games that they play. Nonetheless, I will not act through an emotional appeal only through an objective lens of reality that a derivative of higher self- consciousness and the solid core identity provided by a life of meaning through an underlying state of empathy. All I can do is to understand others at the deeper level bestowed in a cordial respect of my human brethren regardless of the immoral dehumanizing behavior they exhibit the scenes beating me down for decades. I suspect the more power the more inflated the ego, yet all this come with status.

Status like an illusion of making one feel better, but in reality, just brings about more and more stress for a person to have to contend with. The problem is that he does not contend with it well, contributing to heightened threat of self, which becomes more fragmented exasperating an ill-fated disorder, a compounded state delusion and more defense mechanisms. Threatening me, my health, and my life, because me pointing out the obvious which is a delusion to him only puts me more in harm's way being targeted with food assaults. I didn't write any blog since March for two plus months but none of this stopped at all if anything the campaign just got worse.

So what is a guy supposed to do? It is the narcissist abuse cycle to a T, and for me as a person I seek to psycho-educate myself it is what someone that has experienced a high degree of betrayal trauma does as a way to cope with the stress and to stay grounded. I see it as a form of altruism to accept others for who they are away from how they treat and affect your life. I believe it is a form of respect, (respect is to acknowledge someone for their accomplishment's) even if who they are is terrible. It is human dignity to accept someone for their suffering.

The bigger picture reveals they are hurting inside at a higher degree today just like they were before that prevented them from rising above the negative environmental experiences and social learning that compromised their development, unfortunately it was these negative early life experiences that are the precursor of these awful behaviors they exhibit towards themselves and others today. A false sense of self, externally driven always leads to and comes from a negative place.

4;30 now it is important to watch the podcast thoroughly and a couple times. Read the paper by Otto Kernberg (1984) in the show notes of this podcast as well. What is it that takes place in the mind of a person that exhibits behaviors behind the scenes that are in contrast to the image that they portray and the professional responsibility in which they are supposed to uphold. It is important not to get tripped up by the symptoms of personality disorders for example, status or evil behavior, because you may fall prey and lose yourself along the way and trust me this would not be worth it. The danger these folks pose towards others will surely test the tenacity of their strength of character. A tenacity and strength of character in which the personality disorder in question clearly does not hold.

Education and seeking the truth of the Root cause interpreted through situational factors over a lifetime along with social implications and behavioral experiences aligned with case studies and the sciences are the tools we have to work with to understand the subject and the behaviors that come along with this debilitating condition at the deeper level.

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