(45)planned, executed, nailed it

3:00 am

Lots of objective reasoning this morning here in my house before going to work. About the brutality and excessive nature of how folks try to make a business out of people's lives for their own political gain. Why is the same things happening here?

The eve of July 25th I was going to a call I received this afternoon about a cooler acting up in Anaheim Hills Rodrigo’s. I drove out there about 6 pm. Upon my surprise I found Randy had a last minute call to go to a job making him late to come home. Unbeknownst to me someone had ulterior motives I think the call Randy got was to steer us in different directions with me going to Anaheim Hills. Once I am out somewhere I given ample time and knowing I am driving home after then the path of where Perrin is driving and the trying to get Perrin is on. They know what pattern I have of stopping at liquor stores and needing water. So, I took a detour on the way home ended up stopping at Orange Tree Liquor at 110 Orange Ave. in Orange, CA. about (:00 PM on July 25th. I have to bring this to attention cause after drinking some of the water I have developed side effects and have some left here.

Interesting that Donald Trump is in Washington tonight for first time since he lost the election. He is speaking tomorrow. Most notably to contest the Jan. 6 hearings that may indict him. He will fight all the way through still denying that he ever could have lost the election. Not that I have a problem with this, but its just the whole time that I have been being harassed and bullied here in my own hometown I see the shadow in the spotlight on T.V. of this president that has constantly mimicked the behaviors of the person that I have been claiming hates me. It is really no surprise a malignant narcissist that cannot stop, give in, or throw in the towel. Never content with any amount of manipulating or bullying.

People taking matters into their own hands (warrior society) hunting people down that they themselves choose to see as not being fit or not belonging. Not authorized to make these decisions, which could even be seen as an obstruction of justice by looking past what this democracy stands for and how this experiment is at the heart of making this country stand out and above any nations besides ours. I say this because I am an American too with rights.

I should have known the hunt down would be on it is no surprise happening on and off for going over 15 years now. This being addicted to anticipation and surprise is a major excitor of the meso-limbic pathways of the dopamine reward centers. Definitely gives a boost to our more negative neurotic individuals. Sorry to be the bummer at the end of the day don’t want to take away from the endorphins, but the bullying needs to stop. I cannot be someone’s pawn used as a political tool for their own greedy political aspirations. Nor, do I think it is fair that I continue to be used as an outlet for the tension and frustration that an individual holds, which is manifested in the form of anger through displaced aggression. This started mid-January- Feb and went on till someone got busy during the primaries. Studies indicate one of the greatest predictors of displaced aggression is when the alpha male steps down from their place at the top of the hierarchical position. Probably easy to see how important that status is to someone when they cannot help but to immediately have to step back into this position and exemplify hostile behavior as a result of not holding the position at the time being. Where does the pressure come from? I will say since the person stepped into his position in 2015 that I have been harassed in an excessive and in a brutal form that is unethical and dehumanizing to me as a person. All this and never any sort of warning except for threats to criminalizing me in accordance with the refrigeration business that I operate. What’s left of that too anyhow.

I think with the incumbent being under scrutiny for underground activities that this is where a lot of the pressure on the runner up comes from. Not to say that by continuing to threaten my health, and bullying me helps, especially when it is excessive enough to drive me to have to take account of it. I swear this is torture and I am supper bummed this unrelenting crap keeps haunting and happening to me. Please do not bother defending, denying, and/or attacking me this crap is never going to stop. I have not posted anything though even though I should have from my experiences over the weekend of July 4th. I try to not instigate the cycle of feeding the person to prevent the abuse from keeping going. These experiences are dangerous activities that are super organized in nature. Keeping waves of the toxins my way so that I get cancer and then I am out of someone’s way. Sounds like the ideology of a malignant narcissist. I cannot believe what is happening here and now. I hope it doesn’t go further in our country we have come to far.

9:00 am

Tuesday morning some vindictive people hate surely is brazen and bold, not sure if I appreciate it though I guess I am a subordinate, because the people responsible for this surely would not want to experience this. Definitely was assaulted with something. Had a major cold chill come over me this morning around 7:00 am. Hands dry lounge feels weird ears ringing feel kind of Shakey and quivery. Kind of like I am under some kind of substance. Evil always begins with smaller infractions then gets worse and worse till people become used to it like it is the norm, but it isn’t and what they are actually doing from an outsiders view or if they experienced it themselves would they realize the abnormality of it. I feel like crap and have a headache. I am supposed to go to work carry climb, weld, mess with electrical. Gonna have to have Randy help and he is going to see something isn’t right give me shit because I am like foggy and out of it. These actions a superior ordered and as a leader shows an example of how this is appropriate. Like rolling back 100 years with eugenic movement, and the logic of the power and privileged to condemn people institutionalize and even sterilize them because they were seen as biologically defective and thus not belonging. People ended up being generalized for many things as bio defective behaviors like alcoholism and even the unemployed. Pseudoscience no doubt. What a mess.