(102) Re: another bad experience

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Thu, Sep 26 at 7:50 AM

All about me or all about retribution. What takes place behind the scenes surely is indicative of the qualities astyle of leadership that a leader possesses. Character personality definitely unfold through the job by how people will be perceived interpreted which has everything to do with cognition and emotion which are not separate but have to be aligned in a healthy way. And a derivative of development and maturity are outcomes when a person has adapted well in the balance of the biology and social emotional learning that is the functional enviroment aspect related to adapting positively or having a more negative maladaptive development experience. Development learning and positive growth takes place over a lifetime where as a result people can function productive or pathological. Which volition comes into play of what is the drive behind the why and what you do. Despair vs. generativity and worldview may come to mind that goes back to a healthy underlying emotional state one is that often is innate (from early on) empathy vs. apathy. Either state offers resonance if a person makes meaning of their own suffering or not really is a prerequisite of positive development. This is because a person that is empathic allows for meaning through a dialogue to make sense of the context of a situation in a way that seeks rationality in a positive reciprocal fashion which is the  cognitive approach and contributes to healthy development. Meaning this part of the brain has developed so that fear and anxiety is controlled by way of logic and reason, therefore conflict of the subconscious is less because the person is doing the mental work. This has to happen day in and day out for all incoming environmental releasing stimuli. This is and comes from learning which requires the tools of logic and reason to do the cognitive work- seeking objective truth-. This functional capacity leads to a natural happiness and contentment because to keep control in your life in a self-reinforcing fashion is controlled thinking which is a derivative of who you become at the core. The same developed brain that has reinforcement values and expectancies in a dialog and context of character personality for example when internally driven is aligned and attune to a solid core identity. This truth/rationality Iain McGilchrist calls intuition and many astute scientists attribute intuition to where our best and highest level of thinking comes from. Without it i say your doomed.

 just like the feelings that anxiety give a person, or the fear conditioning that a person experiences (when you do not do this work), therefore the amygdala becomes the predominant area of the brain (neuronally active) from more maladaptive development experience. Trust me if you want peace in you life and want to be someone that is pleasant to deal with then you will do the cognitive work to stay on top of yourself. If not then it will progressively get worse over a lifetime if not addressed which is to be able to cope well under stress. Thinking cannot be simplified by hueretics a simplified form of cognition that lacks intuition often a derivative of negative emotions that come to the surface by not seeking deeper meaning with the outcome being conflict within the subconscience which resides when a cognitive dialog does not come to play to seek meaning through rationality. Does rationality when healthy come from unconditional acceptance of others, which I see is human dignity a higher form of integrity. Yes I believe this to be true just like compassion is a form of empathy, but also compassion is a tool that lowers stress because compassion regulates sympathetic arousal. You mean stress? Yes, and it really matters to prevent acting on impulse and having chaos in your life which can happen when burned out and negative emotions like disgust and apathy becoming the the volition and indecisive factor of why, how, and what you do with the incoming environmental releasing stimuli that one encounters in their daily life. The difference is effective reason and order objective or ineffective impulse and chaos a very subjective person one that copes well or another that struggles to cope at all. That's right and it is a derivative of generativity a person that is modest empathic that has gratitude, happiness, content, and cares versus the contrast a person that is the opposite of all this.  Empathy and compassion is a fundamental aspect of development, and is the tool to stay grounded, aligned, and attune to a solid core identity. One thing that goes missing when cognition, rationality, intuition slips and the emotional part of the brain (amygdala) takes residence in a persons life is these ojective reasoning skills which is catastrophic since these are our moral reasoning skills. Scary to think then that the simplified subjective form of thinking through a negative apethetic lens becomes a derivative of actually not thinking at all but just emotionally reacting. a persons mental stack. Yes it is scary when a person is unable to adapt in a healthy way and their mental stack is one that becomes dissociated from self and objective reality therefore not taking the responsibility to seek deeper understand the big picture scenarios.

When apathy takes residence and it becomes  innate (i believe this becomes their volition) a person in apathy is found to live in a vacuum and to fill these void a they will act implosively or explosive and that it is just a matter of time for something to set them off. Apathy is said to be on the fence because from a standpoint of emotional intelligence evil is next. This explains how a person thinks when they can no longer think. Also, cognitive biases (come in many forms) are shortcuts but often come from a more apethtic innate state that has a lot of connection to ego-dystonic thoughts that are not recognized like those with obsessive compulsive disorder experience. 

A person that detaches from self from too much stress comes from and leads to burnout, disgust, and apathy which is to constantly struggle to rise above one's own suffering, therefore shutsdown and reacts negatively to it instead. This short paper shows you cannot function normally and live in reality like this. You will not experience functioning as a whole (process of individuation) that comes from internalization and living a value driven life one that experiences generativity and higher level thinking that comes from intuition and empathy by staying attune and aligned to one's own sufferring and the suffering of others. I studied it, I learned it, I have been living it, i am the messenger and I am trying to share it so you can live it too.

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On Wed, Sep 25, 2024 at 8:31 AM, perrin41@aol.com

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Long day at work yesterday. Follow-up on the food assault i experienced. Sunday night sleeping not long aftera fistinctvrining set in clearly then wide awake. Monday morning  at work stomach hurt and felt intoxicated again. Like I'd mentioned before wouldn't want to operate a motor vehicle well my job isn't just physically demanding but also requires mental focus and concentration to pay attention to details to stay safe. This is like the final straw for mem yesterday changing out an evaporator coil Randy is getting frustrated my focus isn't there hard to stay on track and keep on board which just is not normal for me because usually I am a step ahead of everything. 

It comes time to turning off breaker to disconnect electrical that way can wire nut it and turn back on so the light will be on. We'll first he found the breaker and turned it on. He'd pointed out which 2 they were. When I went to turn it back on there were 4 mini breakers together both pairs looked the same. So he's in the cooler i turn the bottom 2 off. Then think not it's the other so is quickly turn it back on and shut the other off without thinking I should have left it off just in case. Well luckily there is a light came on cause once the first one shut off it was the right one restarted pulling wire nuts and the power instantly came back on scarying and getting him very upset. First time like that has banned in 25 years of working together.

Reckless practices these guys think it's just hilarious and addicted to the hunt down an thrill of the chase. The walk-in floor was all wet we are leaning on metal shelving standing on metal latter's and it only takes 9 milli volts to cause muscular contraction. Yeah really funny thinklessneess is an understatement whoever started this is just as careless as the person that keeps it going. Cant put ones focus where it is needed while intoxicated from some substance that was in a person's water or food that was tainted that they ingested. But when this not able to put focus where it is needed happens as part of a person's psychological make-up, dispositional attribute, or neural structures that are disconnected these examples that I contually share from experiences are really are examples of the danger and lack of safety that these practices imposed. 

Let alone the health problem it can cause people like me can't even take care of myself nutrition wise and since targeted even to seek medical care is an opportunity these people have shown that they will use to slander your name to have more abuse targeted and directly imposed upon you.

 Acting subjective not seeking objective truth revolutionary Marxist thinking everything is messed up and needs to be changed. Then the prejudice- prejudgement placed upon others acting on preconceived notions, bias  post- hoc rationalizing, hindsight bias, apathy, greed, hate, just the whole 9 of what is assumed, predicted or expected from someones opinion is just directing an anger that resides from within outward.

Talk about dominating others and super competitive at a level and degree i could never imagine would be possible. 

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On Tue, Sep 24, 2024 at 4:50 AM, perrin41@aol.com

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Typo 

Wide awake ears ringing feeling like crap. Will follow-up with any further negative implications in my daily life being targeted & just trying to survive.

On Tue, Sep 24, 2024 at 4:40 AM, perrin41@aol.com

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Some people are just to radical. Some thoughts and some examples on this. Silence anyone that knows of my true colors.

For me I do not see status i just see people. Status is meaningless underneath it all it is character that really defines who someone is and what they are all about. Some are all about status and social hierarchies and often fail to see people at all. I am this because you are that. Social constructs labels and very subjective rather than to look within and seek objective truth without personalized judgment. The information processing and mindset fixed vs. growth of folks is one to be reckoned with based on brain structure, adapting well to one's environment through life in a way that a t promotes outcomes of higher functionality. I can't see status being more important than character here in this premises. 

Fonal Trump really appreciates his power position, but it seems to have been at the mercy of the integrity of the Republican party. There has been so much disillusionment  in the lack of compromise to the degree that it showed who was character driven, because anyone that was character driven was cast out and they left the party. Makes you just shake your head in disgrace of what a mess things can become when people exploit and manipulate others and conflict arises when the organization lacks effective leadership. This example I hope exemplifies negative outcomes that can arise within the group. The bigger concern is this style of cynical leadership often comes from the cumulative effects of stress over a lifetime and lackluster development leading to aggression and negative worldviews, but as we are seeing all throughout the world that this stress and hostility is cast outwards. For example, to out groups therefore causing conflict between groups as we are experiencing aggravated times here in the U.S. a divided nation. It's just a shame we need to pull ourselves together and be better than this it is not good for the world nor is it good for mankind.

Ihad posted the following email as I encountered another negative experience not laying down to sleep for long till the wide awareness set in in the form of ear ringing. After this following email went to lay down then I thought of the above then got back up to share it. How it connects at the micro and macro level I see it in the behavioral neuroscience and development. Whatever but it makes such a difference at what could be very positive or very negative and just like the example of the Republican party good people get stuck in the middle of people that become ruthless and just off the hook. Fricken lame. I am in this boat as well it messes up your life needlessly and it is not fair.

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On Tue, Sep 24, 2024 at 3:32 AM, perrin41@aol.com

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Early Tuesday the good old negative symptom came in again Luna says bout for Perrin. Bearing false witness is a tenth commandment, doesn't say a whole lot about your smear campaigns. Just that these emails drive a retribution effect not a surprise for the personality, actually in the past emails I predicted this. It is defamation of character with an intent to harm someone. Paint him black and it's ok to run the outlaw practices program on him. Go ahead call it what you want it is just good old fashioned hate. So prideful. I've read that an inflated ego is the most dangerous of the human condition, and what I am experiencing here is no different just pure evil.

Daniel Goleman, I'll briefly reexplain it again, which you can read his book or watch his focus podcast. He explains the three kinds of empathy cognitive emotional and empathic concern. He research coupled with many other studies finds that leaders that have cognitive but lack the other two are running amock. Meaning they are really good at hitting the target, but do not care about the people. Sounds like integrity to me so wonderful that integrity is a long standing tradition in the sheriff's department and this new leader is completely void of it. It will have its implications in many ways not just it not having  the ability to care for others and in doing so with no remorse. What an example not one I'd want to follow. Iain McGilchrist was on point when he says being cynical comes from a place of self-interest. Which contrasts that of people with a conscience, empathy and moral reasoning skills which are all qualities not of enjoying bullying people and beating then down, but instead that of a higher developed person one that seeks meaning at the capacity of an emotionally and intellectually mature adult. 

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On Sat, Sep 21, 2024 at 5:21 AM, perrin41@aol.com

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Studies show that if the subordinate if he challenges the status quo that this is one of the biggest instigator of violence and hatred that exists. Just a follow-up od symptoms from the toxic encounter I experienced Wednesday. Waking up Thursday morning feeling like I had a hangover, and still have a headache while writing this early Saturday morning. Thursday night after getting home from work I asked down on couch tired a so I rested what I noticed was just not normal. Also after an hour laying there looking at a green accent wall it didn't look this way. Instead it looked like a million little dots. Friday morning still feeling groggy on drive to work business partner complaining I wasn't communicating well not staying on  topic. I told him I am feeling messed up.

 I realize I am already the target of some groups transcendent mission, and that producing an email of their activities is challenging the status quo which of course is going to instigate more hatred towards me. This is no surprise or is it? I am a pretty straight forward guy, and to not beat around the bush here it is surprising the behaviors exhibited by the group. For one I do not judge people, instead I seek to understand them not subjectively (opinion, attitude). It seems though this is always an emotional response of what is assumed, predicted and expected of others but done so through a hateful negative lens. The behaviors are extreme if Putin used chemical warfare in Ukraine he would be listed as a war criminal. Where is the oversight? Thank God these are place and time variables, and that of the 18,000 police organizations accross the country that  many are filled with leaders that actually exhibit emotional intelligence which from the lens of human consciousness is what is required for moral development and effective functioning and a prerequisite of functioning at the capacity of a intellectually and emotionally mature adult. 

I've compared the differences this email isn't about that it is a follow-up from another negative experience from. What I see as a leader that is running an extermination program and that his personality seems to be really about two things. It is all about him or it is all about retribution. Who has time for all this? Actually when laden heavey in pathology (which you do not see all the time) does it seem he has the ability to make the choice. It's easy when living a life that promotes high dopamine baselines. For one, it is the learning molecule, and two the molecule that makes you do the right thing when It's the harder thing to do. I can attest to this, and that being internally driven and functioning at this rate for a long time principles become automatic and like laws to you that do not shift. Just like being emotionally regulated due to the highly active frontal vortex in neuronal activity. This does not promote a damaged amygdala, which senses danger and instigated strong emotion often due to being inhibited or even disconnected from the cognitive part of the brain that is offline. Either didn't develop morally or high stress led to the exacerbated condition of limbic friction. 

Neither here nor there some play games while others live a genuine life of meaning and not reacting. 

Moral conscience, intuition, what I posted to an email yesterday of a podcast by Ian McGilchrist "purpose in the universe" respectively,  polishes up all the research that I have concluded in my consciousness studies. For some it comes naturally and mental health is all about meaning, moral reasoning, and living a life attune to one's solid core identity based off a value driven life and a world view that follows. Can't do this without empathy. So where is it that all this evil stuff come from? The cynicism and such McGichrist says from self- interest and self-centeredness.

Some get so desperate in ideology it becomes an addiction, without flexibility of an open mind without genuine purpose through reason, therefore lacking intuition and cognitive imagination to derive another conclusion. When healthy coping skills go by the wayside instead anxiety and fear from an overactive amygdala takeover their nervous system, thrir perception, and interpretations heavy price to pay in the withdrawl of inner peace. Also, along with anyone that gets in their way due to one's volition being that of heightened fear, threat, anger all mixed in a concoction of negative emotions like anger which in this apathetic state will be transferred outwards.

I am someone's addiction pressed, dehumanized, controlled and beat up on as a way of and a part of someone's daily life. And Perrin do not say anything, Perrin do not try to live in a way that disregards the label I have imposed upon you and have been dedicated to keep you isolated to prevent you from doing so.

Where there is no oversight and when manipulating to this degree when it becomes very corrupt what everyone just turn their heads and run with what is handed to them?

It would take a DA that was a cop to see that some do cross the line and to have empathy to keep a conscience that sees people and humanity not just social issues through a closed minded lens of digust. 

Guess what? When burn out and addicted to the emotion of disgust you are in a repressive state of apathy.  this state often goes unaddressed but it is important to address this because the outcome is that that mimiks PTSD. Stress will alter the physiology of the brain in a way that the person will not know themselves, and not see anything other than harmful. 

When developed and functioning at the optimal stae of the human organism is all positive from gratitude from within and transpursed outward in gratitude, love, in a non biased objective way that is not selfish whatsoever actually quite the opposite. It comes in the form of Intuition which is rational and seeks objective truth, which is never subjective & petty, instead it is a higher positive faith that naturally has a higher belief that everything just has to be ok and will work itself out. 

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On Thu, Sep 19, 2024 at 8:11 AM, perrin41@aol.com

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Seen on news Luna made a step about cracking down on deputy gangs.Then that night later I am now early morning wake up like lips numb or hot stomach weird & chest vibration and feeling something making it tight.

The full program get comfortable after the conference and making a policy about deputy a reaction of himself due to being under threat right now due too, from, and because of his own practices. Then as this is taking place using the very practices that he is condemning (that he knows he hasn't got caught at) to try to wipe out any threat. The sciences and psychology explain the behavior. Disconnected hyper focused on fear & threat can't focus on what's important per Goleman.

(Pathology). My emails last week explain more. Except for the extent of the genocide that I am experiencing. But where are the current behaviors and responses coming from and who gets placed in harms ni way as a result?

Last year not long after he reprimanded those officers in Palmdale that had the incident with a lady with a baby in her arms. This was days before a year was up to do something per Villanueva on his radio program, Villanueva also stated that, this specific incident had already been investigated and that the officers were found to be doing their job for the lady to be resisting. Anyhow playing politics, and after the incident with these officers being reprimanded and from what I noticed once  Luna got comfortable in his new position was watching his true personality unfold (that is lets go kick some more ass. I experienced a Friday after this incident of the officer being reprimanded was another assault like that I experienced  last night and it was heavy and it caused a lot of stress back then. Are we seeing a trend here? After all pathology is maladaptive behaviors that reinforce one another.

One thing Goleman says is, leaders that may have cognitive empathy (like a socialpath that knows they hurt you emotionally & feed on it), yet lack the other two kinds of empathy; emotional or empathic concern. He says that when lacking these other two that the leader can do very well at hitting the target, but it stops there because they do not know the affect that their actions plays on others. This surely is because of 2 things 1. Because they do not care and because of a lack of empathic concern that they are unaware of the characteristics of the person themselves. 2. When a person is isolated from there own affect then they surely lack awareness of how or what emotional state another person may be experiencing. This not being capable of the human condition and so much that goes along with it is one reason why someone that wants to take all the matters (choose who belongs or who doesn't, and actually go underground and act on it) into their own hands becomes so dangerous and extreme. It begs the question though, was the conference yesterday a sign that this man is scared and has something to hide? I

It goes beyond pointing the finger though, because another question is of my experience of being targeted yesterday and having side effects early morning that were concerning due to there health altering affects aldo connected to his fear and paranoia. But how many other people are being targeted? 

Last night sitting on the couch feeling wierd ears rang and like I could tell of being exposed again so I vented speaking my mind and pondering idea's of what is taking place and why? Too much to list here, but a concern is protecting lives and keeping all people safe. After the Palmdale incident me taking a heavy hit and gosh knows who else there was an officer that had been killed right near the station in his patrol car. And it was done by someone with a mental health condition that had previous interactions with the police. Was he targeted as someone that did not, that needed to go therefore these ssme outlaw tactics that I have been experiencing were employed? If so did this lead to this man dealing with stress that he could not cope with and instead exploded going and harming an innocent person? 

I would think the odds are high. Being that so and so likes to dish it out but lacks awareness at the level of objective truth (big picture), yet the degree of not seeing people but only social issues.

I expressed in a few emails a last week what is possible and what isn't in cognitive capacity and the cumulative effect stress plays in the role of mental health. The struggle is real but without awareness of what or where it comes from and the higher degree of functionality delusional states of being and pathology will just keep going on unaware, unnoticed and u seen. I step forward because of this due to the many negative implications (agression, hatred, violence) that gets played out at the micro, macro level, at the in group, out group and between group level interactions. The election coming and social economic times being in hardshiphave led to a cyclical point that we have seen before one of weak men making for hard times.

Just how hard we all hit bottom has much to do with how weak the hard times make us. It is a time we have to lean on one another. Strengths weaknesses be strong for one another like in world War 2. Which these hard times made for strong men and many good years to follow.

  Do times need to get so bad that we experiencece another civil war in this country in an effort to preserve democracy and the sacred values in which for this country stands?

Do stress levels need to be so high that the maladaptive  stress response becomes heightened that effective functioning goes away to the realm of acting at the level of the symptoms of the actual maladaptive stress response itself; emotionally reactive, impulse control issues, and risky behaviors due to reward center (nucleus accumens) being out of balance. 

The struggle is real, but so is pathology. Doing all the wrong things for the wrong reasons for some may not be able to be helped, and for them though they may be far to gone to see the difference in the battle they face that of the mind but for others it is completely obvious.

The bigger picture is one not to be neglected no matter how inflated the ego, nor the grandiose power at hand. It should not and does not have to be this way, but when it is and things are going wrong for the sake of mankind and for the sake of human life something has to be done.

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