(10) Why the lack of posts in the blog

I follow-up when it gets really bad. I have been involved in a couple accidents recently one where the individual broadsided me at 45 miles per hour as I crossed through an intersection where the signal had went out. I do not keep up with the blog like I should I do not look for problems, but it seems that people do not like and accept me for who I am. This is not hard for me to understand. I am at the emotional level of empathy- understanding and feeling the pain of others is a sure way to care and forgive even the most blatant of actions from others, which I do. The thing to learn is is that an individual at this level is incapable of hating and the emotional state that a person is at is the level of capability in which they will act. For example, a person that is apathy or even worse antipathy is at the level in which they do not engage in feeling their own feeling or suffering let alone the feeling or suffering of others. So, someone that has hate do not just pick or choose to hate, it is just part of their emotional make-up to hate, and will do so accordingly. In other words as a person some just cannot hate even if their life depended on it, while others just cannot help not to hate because it is the emotional state/level in which they are at. Being empathic I carry such a positive regard that I do not want a problem, but being value driven (internal locus of control) this regard for others is high, so when being devalued at such a level, and incited by hate in such a manner causes pain rather than anger because caring rises above when at a healthy emotional state.

This also goes for trying to rationalize the negative behaviors that are directed at me from others. If people could listen to these conversations as I objectify the adverse behaviors of others in an effort to surely understand where others are coming from surely they would be offended. Today for instance feelings of being oppressed led me to speak of taking more lashings from these individuals, because being a slave to their cause is like being owned by someone when they go out of their own way to try to restrain me from positive growth in my life is dehumanizing and very frustrating. So, today I spoke to myself of my civil rights being broken like that of freedom of speech where listening to my own conversation that I have with myself in private can be taken as offensive to others , SO I GET LASHED OUT ON. Also the idea of control oil, control nations, or control food, control people. Well I am up now due to something I ate or drank my hands feeling all dried out now as well as some substance sets in. Great fricken headache too.

Psychologist George Kelly finds the brain works as a computer as a grid of constructions that a person holds that are used in the cognitive process as a guide to decision making. Sure these come from experiences and used based on the emotional state in which one may find themselves. Some people have a lot of constructions, whereas others have very few. Surely, being positive or negative plays a role just as being open or closed minded, but also how much effort an individual puts forth in organizing the values and principles they hold also plays a role. I have found dedicating my life to education the last 10 of 14 years has led to my increasing my constructions immensely through knowledge gained, also practicing critical thinking skills allows for utilizing these constructions more effectively. What does it matter who cares? It does matter learning is important to prevent being biased, greedy, selfish and apathetic. Determination comes in many forms, but is surely a product of one's motivations, which comes in many forms as well.