(52) yippie yi a just like the wild west today

The title seems like a joke, but it is not. Democracy is at stake in this nation we are hearing this all the time as a concern and the concern is real. Political violence is on the rise, and it seems that there is an attack fest going on at the micro and macro level.

Lack of ability to change perception through a different interpretation for many years now I am reduced to a political pawn being used and held hostage for someone to bolster their own success. Someone is making the calls and has this organized and getting a big ole high off of it.

I shopped tonight in Irvine at H market off Alton Parkway and paid for my food and drinks at 5:23 pm. have been shopping at these markets for quite some time now and often buy the same drinks. I am saying there is a truck running around filled with items that I have bought from markets in the past that are tainted and that I have experienced side effects after I eat or drink these things. It has happened more often and become more extreme lately. I experience what seems as caustic, radiation and arsenic exposure. Someone calling the shots taking matters and democracy into their own hands is delusional and vision is distorted. Orders are coming from somewhere. Out of procedure and the job description, yet an externally driven individual with a thirst for power, control, and harassing the living heck out of someone- me. Being bent on rules and compliance is great and all, but constantly hunting people down in a way that threatens their health, safety, that is unethical and unconstitutional is professionally irresponsible. Recently, I read that he eats' breaths and sleeps his job. Even when retired? Aren't there other aspects of life to enjoy Is there not bigger and greater things to focus his sights on rather than be hyper focused and micro- manage me.

When someone has experienced too much stress or trauma the mirror becomes fogged, and the window can be distorted, and it takes compassion to read and understand the issues at the deeper level. When compassion/empathy become lost the more overwhelming the issues become due to a lack of deeper engagement. Frustrations, tensions and burnout, may set in, resulting in apathy and an addiction to the emotion of disgust. This turning point of negative spirit must be treated, yet often goes unnoticed by the individual on the downward spiral Doesn't seem fair, because I feel others pain, I am empathic and have learned about these things in my studies. Also, though it is unfair when apathy escalates and people that do not deserve it become part of the displaced aggression and the temperament of having your character misread as a person when being seen through someone's else's faulty vision and hate filled lens.

Lately since January this has escalated. and even worse 10/14/22 - 10/21/22 I experienced constant hidden and covert assaults in the form of side-effects after eating. More dehydrated body, hands and stomach. Then 10/22/22/- 10/31/ as I write this Friday over the weekend, and this morning it has seemed itching hands dehydrated, and lymph areas have become uncomfortable again.

I am suffering consequences the only procedure I have seen are underground practices that are unethical that are threatening to my existence. It is difficult to trust anyone that functions in this way because these choices of action exemplify deviant behaviors that are a derivative of hate, anger and are a product of bad judgement. Do I need to say more?

I put where I shopped after this bad experience and will try to be more thorough in posting these negative experiences in the future and include where I shopped and when.

Since, I graduated CSULB in December I have every day after work read and studied and contributed to the foundation of what I have learned in the classes I have already taken. The learning has been abundant, it is so exciting for me, and I get so much out of it. I have 0 addictions and am excited for my future I would think someone else is too, but he has to use others for his success mine is inside- out approach of unlimited possibilities and an open mind. Yet,

I am experiencing a truck following you GPS all over with products that I buy off of a list of products I have already bought. An underground ring a way to control someone and/or get rid of them if they don't comply. A hunt down. Procedure and professional responsibility to protect the democracy of this nation and the people in it would include me as well is lost here with these types of practices. Like an authoritarian dictator calling the shots of who belongs or who doesn't belong. Have theory add people. Assessing in this matter in a subjective means lacking any type of objectivity without any type of scientific support is pseudo-science. Categorizing people without looking at the individual themselves or utilizing outside resources from people trained to think and with the knowledge to understand human development and the linear progression of a human life, yet instead judge and tear someone down through post-hoc rationalizing by a group in an effort to articulate what is assumed, predicted or expected of someone that has been labeled is neglectful and dehumanizing.

I am a team player dedicated in my studies to give back in some way shape or form. I do not like stepping on people's feet I am extremely rational and hate fighting and arguing with people in a way that lacks any kind of compromise. I have no bias and am not steered by any kind of ideologies or any type of way that can gratify my own personal success. I am value driven and have some superior that has latched onto me in a cycle that as a subordinate I am not supposed to have internalized belief or a value system that I use as a compass. It is crazy I am not a judgmental person but surveillance listening to private conversation I have with myself must be being picked up and used against me. another right 1st amendment freedom of speech being broken. Then this blog only as a way to try to halt abusive practices against me, and so that awareness is not neglected, yet it is private because I do not share this blog.

The post below was from a previous posting to this blog in the past

These people have me cornered I cannot get food or drinks anywhere without having an adverse experience like being assaulted from tainted food or water I ingest. I have found control oil control nations, but when you control food you control people. Some personalities love controlling people. They know where I go and what I buy. Unless I can see my food being prepared and no one expecting me to go there will I eat out. Then the market thing. When I eat or drink things that give side-effects it makes you feel inferior and lowers moral. Makes you concerned of long-term effects. When your face itches and mee's lines are present it is a good indicator of arsenic poisoning which is proven to cause cancer. Someone surely does not like me. Well there you have it if something happens to me I am sure with this info federal authorities can come to the bottom of the widespread corruption that I am and have experienced. In history it always starts with small evils that escalate and get out of control till people have gone to far, and then have to answer for their activities. Seriously the system of checks and balances, the executive, the judicial, and the house of representatives is what keeps control, in contrast, to countries like Russia and North Korea. For me I try to refrain from posting in the blog due to fear of retribution. More dirty tricks that just lead me to more pain and suffering and being criminalized is the last thing I need more of. definitely not what I want, but me and my human and civil rights are being slaughtered and it is just not fair. Me nor any civilian should have to endure the unruly abusive tactics and practices that I am experiencing at this time. I'd rather be writing poetry like the beautiful words of nature that flowed out of my heart when I had a girlfriend living my dream than writing about this shit any day of the week.