(146) Neural development is only as strong as the demand that is placed upon it, it comes in years of being on track functionally for effective structural development to take place.

This time it was after listening to a skid row follow up where mayor Bass, chief McDonnel, and District Attorney Nathan Hochman spoke about this. All spoke elaborately of the matter. One thing I noticed was chief McDonnel mentioned about the people living on the street there about keeping hope and other words that were of positive regard. I wrote the two pages quickly elaborating my thoughts of leaders like McDonnel that are engaged in feeling, empathic and how wisdom and experience is gained through these attributes that are not only acted out to stay aligned to self in the social emotional learning process. This positive reinforcement is self-reinforcing at the neural level because the person is intrinsically motivated and has integrated character traits that offer dopamine baselines to be higher due to living daily in alignment (through your interactions with others) to your genuine authentic self. A sign of secure attachment, and adapting more positively to the environment enough to look within, to have empathy at the innate level to be engaged in their own suffering and the suffering of others.

You’re not dependent on others for social reward (i.e., see’s people not social constructs, categories or objects to be used for their own self) to show how good they are, to have to use false narratives (i.e., fulfilling ego-gratification, curbing anxiety by acting on conditioned fears). For example, external locus of control comes from not being able to be strong by looking within which is a form of being isolated from feeling/affect. Instead of seeking deeper meaning to find acceptance through caring, rather comes an Innate state of apathy looking negatively outwards seeing the problem as out there having to be done away with for their own peace (i.e., negative reinforcement) to extinguish fear/threat, yet never truly and actually in this state of lack of meaning and lack of positive reinforcement a person is incapable to put negative emotions, fears aside. Unable to use cognitive appraisal like above, nor be driven to seek objective truth and reality beyond self as a means of accountability of self and others through empathy, caring, and love. No growth mind set, self-efficacy or autonomy of will, just someone that becomes dependent on others with a big ego that will need someone to separate themselves from to distinguish who they are.

Is this someone just suffering and hurting struggling to use others to show how good they are but undeveloped morally?  Or the development of the pathways and the prefrontal cortex never came online to where there is no way to ever be good enough lack reinforcement stuck in apathy in the way Jordan Pederson explains that you cannot live this way (dissociated from self not engaged in suffering/feeling) that they have regressed to behaviors that exhibit a disease state of psychopathy? Acquired ventral medial frontal cortex damage along the way to lack the moral ability to distinguish right from wrong and become barbarous to others instead. Has self-deception left him deluded and running a mindless lack of meaningless disgust, anger and hate filled program away from the principles of democracy, instead bringing a bunch of people down with you even those that you're sworn to protect?

To have no framework of self to be aligned to, no aim that is genuine or authentic to self cannot see the big picture trauma and a cumulative effect of stress unhealthy attachment style (i.e., insecure, ambivalent, disorganized, anxious avoidant) is to struggle cognitively someone that can't put their focus where it is needed to struggle to be independent due to negative affect (i.e., shame, guilt, feelings of inadequacy of self). Studies show kids experiencing a high stress environment (i.e., low social economic status) at five or six have been found to experience high stress hormones also experience atrophy to their prefrontal cortex. Furthermore, Otto Kernburg 1973 studies on narcissism kids from too stressful and harsh of a caretaker/parent/guardian can experience object permanence and struggle to see people as people but instead see objects through the lens of how the caretaker/parent/guardian made them feel. Robert Luna was on the news speaking of drone surveillance and said it was down on the corner he even responded as being surprised after saying it. Seems if the environment doesn’t change apathy can begin young, a cascade of development issues from issues like this go unaddressed and the person never develops morally, nor the prefrontal cortex (executive center) of the brain never comes online due to the individual never developing morally.

Having latched on to a false/ideal ego-based self that doesn't develop or act accountable morally, nor learn, too much frazzle, disinhibited / amygdala hijack. Emotionally dysregulated, intellectually immature. The executive center is not online (i.e., atrophied and a circuitry problem) and an amygdala that is hyperactive or damaged as a result. Impaired the amygdala that will scan the environment for danger m instigating strong emotions of the sympathetic nervous system/autonomically often through senses through a body brain disconnect leaving the cognitively impaired individual running amok in limbic friction. Depersonalization, post-hoc rationalization, confirmation bias, general anxiety levels like OCD, borderline personality disorder, narcissism, psychopathy. These personality disorders stem from physiological change from too much stress contributing to a body brain disconnect and nervous system irregularities of hormones like cortisol, epinephrine, and Interoception and imbalance to that of exteroception and imbalances to areas of the brain regarding matter, space, time.

Reward deficiency syndrome explained as imbalance of nucleus accumens area resulting from low dopamine baselines which further contributes to a whole host of behavioral issues as indicated by the maladaptive stress response. For example, addictions to risky adverse behaviors in which you act on impulse seeking hedonistic pleasures on a whim to get out of pain of low dopamine levels from a lack of positive reinforcement.  Behaviors like gotcha culture, thrill of the chase (becoming addicted to emotions like anticipation and surprise which are tied to risk taking and thrill seeking) tribal politics, like groupthink- transcendent mission against a target derived from polarized ideologies tied to and bolster social movements like dictators us to serve the false self through false narratives and scripts. Becoming addicted to sympathetic nervous system emotions like fear, anxiety, aggression, anger, hatred, aggression/violence. Not pretty when a person is emotionally dysregulated. I have experienced at a heightened degree over time. All of this a constant barrage of assaults of being targeted cancel culture trying to manipulate my personal life (controlling the narrative) status quo identity politics requiring me to be a slave to the cause and if I try to live my life to my potential, my goals and my dreams if this challenges the status quo then I pay a dear price and I am. Not just being treated like a slave to someone’s cause, not just cause my life is on hold, but worse as ego has gotten bigger so has the cost of retribution and vindication. Seems like killing for this person has become that much easier, rewarding and exciting to him. No hope or positive regard like McDonnel just straight sadistic evil and an underground criminal enterprise to go with it. Someone that has an autocratic style of leadership that wants absolute control and power and has went underground to achieve it. The being promoted to lead the biggest sheriffs department has done nothing but inflate his ego to cause all his ill-fated business practices to become worse.   

One fact right now is that political aspirations are at an all-time high indicate higher stress levels, therefore, the aggressive high stress state would become worse as a person that lacks healthy coping skills may experience an aggravated preexisting condition. For example, at the brain, body, mind, and behavioral level from the negative emotions (i.e., fear, anxiety, anger hatred from sympathetic arousal, the competitive nature of hierarchical thinking (i.e., social, dominance hierarchies) will be elevated. Which indicates the ordinate and subordinate relationships that take place are politically motivated. This offers a good example of the hidden conflict of mood, temperament, and greed can take place at different degrees and extremes with those that struggle with personality disorders. 

Cannot live isolated from affect/not feeling. Jordan Peterson explains that what comes out of a person stuck in a state of apathy is irrelevant because you cannot live this way it is pathology (i.e., doing all the wrong things for the wrong reasons. No intuition by way of a stream of consciousness from a life of learning (generativity). Semantic encoding and autobiographical self- creativity, imagination, extended memory, reason, language and anticipated future just does not take place. 

Alexis De Tocqueville shared he feared one of the biggest threats to democracy, "is a mass society of mutually antagonistic men easy prey to despotism".

The antagonistic like explained here one can see that a cumulative affect of stress over one's whole life are a factor of positive versus negative experience, which one's ability to adapt in a healthy way or not is surely part of conditioning- empathy versus apathy motivational factors like internal versus external locus of control and so much more that I do not have time to go into detail here. There is no excuse for autocratic style practices that allow for hate and political violence to take place. I worked hard to learn and understand at a deeper level the bigger picture of how it all connects through the lens of cognitive psychology, the neurosciences, and behavioral neuroscience. Some that accept you will receive the blessing, while others that cannot look within may not have a growth mindset want therefore react by only contributing negatively to the polarized ideologies and extreme behaviors that have become their way of life and that they have become addicted too. The pathology and defense mechanisms will only get worse and it is. Philosophers from long ago could have only wished that they could be here to share their wisdom and hope as a positive contributing factor for the longevity of mankind, our species, and the world as we know it. The findings from the research I share here to understand difficult people and the complexity of life comes from a multi-dimensional approach that is and was shared by many of the ancient philosophers from long ago. Socrates, Plato and Mark Twaine believed all nations would become autocratic and authoritarian eventually resulting from a lack of character at the realm of a firm, power hungry thinking regime based heavily on rule and compliance. Our species is designed to function at its best the way the framers fought for. They were right believing in self-governance, but not all reach this higher capacity of development, or the continent and happiness that comes naturally when living in alignment to self in sound character through others like the principles of democracy promote. Integrity and human dignity is important just like the idea that all men are created equal. 

These people are heartless, ruthless and low. I have experienced psychological turmoil that people are not supposed to experience. I serve as an example that emotional regulation from learning to not take my suffering for granted but to seek objective truth and reality to find acceptance of another’s suffering regardless of the way they treat me, regardless of how they have negatively impacted my life, and regardless of how they made me feel can offer unrelenting positive growth. I am tough but not in a war of attrition where people play dirty and are dishonest and immoral. I utilize God's generous love to combat what is literally a war of attrition that is still ongoing daily takes away my God given inalienable rights and damages my health from a hit squad geared to do so, It is compassion that regulates sympathetic arousal. I have become even more resilient to stress in facing adversity, but with recent experiences it shows that this is not fair that it comes from greed, hate, and criminalizing people inhumanely and unethically for Robert Luna is politically motivated. Not everyone can blindly lower themselves to this degree, but he is charismatic on the surface but dissociated from self his real personality lies in his true capability which is all covered by a mask. Yet being isolated, suppressed and physically assaulted affecting my health negatively, being sound of mind in flow state I learned psycho educated myself which I share a lot of this information here and an even healthy form of development has taken place in the form which I have stated in the title of this blog. He couldn't break me to his liking so he's going underground to hide what I know of him by destroying my health, which I can promise he has cancelled many out in being slick and what he thinks is articulate. Yet it is not the same personalities vary, and this that I experience comes from what and who someone is and this displaced aggression that has become psychopathic evil and sadistic towards others is what has evolved people are going to get hurt their lives destroyed like my life and at the realms of pathology. Pushing people to the brink of destruction is not common sense it does not come from a good place it is blind a waste of time and is just not right. The need for the antagonistic war minded all about me or retribution type can be seen in the thirst and desperation of the need to keep power. this is what feeds the ego/image and utilizing resources from the job to be able to fulfill these adverse behaviors becomes a necissity similar to getting rid of threat that threatens there image yet it is the very practices they become addicted to that is the biggest threat to them of all. All evil starts small and escalates larger scale as a result this jerk is trying to wipe me out and I am the nicest person around. Luckily, it is only place and time variable's but that does not excuse the threat to democracy that an individual with this disposition and a lack of character poses to others that get stuck in the middle as well. In the 21st century we can/t go backwards and repeat the evil thats taken place in history it leaves a dark mark considering what is possible under effective functional maybe even transformational under the right leadership. I do not think I need to tell you this when trends in the suffering in our societies suggest the same.

Who is going to stand up to the pathology to prevent damage control at the micro macro level, and protect an organization that hired this person to save the organization but lacks the ability to do so by any logical or realistic means of hope or personality beyond kicking ass serve himself? This I am sharing and the threat of catastrophically based damage that could take years to recover from is absolutely 100% real; I stayed grounded attuned aligned to self did not take my suffering for granted by tuning out when it got difficult. I dug deeper, tried harder, expected more out of myself, and stayed just as accountable to others just as I held a higher bar of accountability to myself even under having my character and identity bashed constantly for many years.

I am not competitive, I am interdependent and share a natural belief in life that through hope, a better understanding of one another is possible, and can be achieved through empathy. That in love comes the faith and reward of positive growth, a future that unlimited possibilities and higher potential can be gained through a common good and belief that when we are united that we are better together.