(128) Copy of email and follow up emails from December 2024. And another copy of email sent in 2021 which was also posted as my first blog post.

Re: being hunted

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perrin41 

From:perrin41@aol.com

To:perrin41@aol.com

Sun, Dec 24, 2023 at 2:11 PM

Follow-up from this email. 

The water I drank Monday & Monday night was from the faucet here at my house which I gave to my cat as well. My cat 2nd similar reaction like this in past month and a half. Last time getting sick not able to hold

Sold food down for a week.

This time dry heaving saliva Tuesday then freaking out having to go #2. Not k knowing what to do & looking scared.

Wednesday.

I got rid of the water so he didn't drink a lot.

Thing is I had a pretty bad side effect but nothing like what the cat experienced. It is a sign of what we are both drinking may be as toxic as the symptoms I am experiencing.

This guy is a butcher and my experience looks for a direct route of administering this would be Dr. visits like after a dermatology visit having a shot in the upper back then experiencing low blood pressure (not knowing it at the time) that caused an eye stroke. Lost vision in an important part of my eye.

So after two weeks this weekend yesterday Saturday 23 was no better. Driving home from riverside stopped at smart & final tustin then costco right near there.

Cat this early morning crying getting sick, a d me a bad experience slight burning of mouth going to bed waking stomach  urging me ears ringing earlier and still now 12:33. Can't really trust eating or drinking anything I bought yesterday. This is like being hunted down by a hit squad from being labeled as not belonging and a genocide can't survive without food in water especially if the food and drinks u get are messed up.

Someone's on a quest to cover up and has something to hide. Paranoid. Can't take the last two weeks of the year to detach get a new frame of reference from a clear state of mind?

I have been working and staying busy seems like thing eased for a few days only to return full steam ahead. 

Constantly trying to get you food assaults. 

Could u imagine someone doing partaking in these behaviors and then throwing in a smear campaign on top?

Justify ideological beliefs, saving face, cannot be wrong?

On the other hand if hearing me in my home this would do it. As I rationalize outlook seeking objective truth of the matters taking a structural approach where it comes from, and the effect experienced at the micro and macro level across the board.

One thing leads to insecurity and paranoia is having the need for external validation but not being able to trust anyone. This just doesn't work.

I can see how tribal politics evolves and a group that becomes polarized acting on likeminded ideologies becoming extreme to be accepted by group- group think. Acting in ways one would never act on their own.

The inner conflict when value driven members are pressed to take part yet fear not being accepted by group but inner conflict arises in the form of dissonance when stuck in between these two opposing  thoughts that create added tension.

When becoming bigger than ones self in this group setting comes the loss of individuality of character detached from the very core identity that distinguished by and through self-awareness that of the higher conscious areas of the brain that is so needed to be attuned to the inner brain where all the I portent stuff resides. The limbic sub- cortical areas where one stores lifetime memories, extended memory (learning) the reward centers and fear emotional centers. Detaching the higher consciousness area from this area by repressing the self to external form of validation leads to a failure of the self through repressive apathy and a disconnect of communication from the orbit frontal cortex(higher consciousness area to the limbic sub- cortical area. Don't take the bait no group validation is worth losing everything (higher cognitive) ability that goes away when the connectivity between environmental releasing stimuli the mind and self discipline and self-control. It is a needed functionality ( bio mechanicalistically arranged) to stay attune to one's own self. Through neuroplasticity gene expression will adapt In epigenetic change allowing for change of structure in the circuitry and predominate fu cation of so e brain regions over others. This takes place in behavior and how the person adapts to environmental stimuli in a healthy coping response or not is the directive of positive vs negative change in this crucial areas.

The foundational aspect of effective person is I side-out approach to living. Staying attuned to self is do e through empathy and o e way empathy is acted upon is through compassion. Above the contrast of being attune is to be morally disengaged the equivalent of a ship without a rudder. 

Hopefully by reading this one can gain a main takeaway of these points and the importance of a higher functioning self can only come through the logic and reason of an internalized value system that is reinforced daily as one makes choices based on these values that guide them. This framework leads to  Principle centered living principles that a person follows as laws that never bend..

It becomes easy when the neurobiology is in equilibrium. The contrast away from functioning maladaptively due to experiencing a state of stasis- allostatic load to the point of exhaustion. For example, by from not finding reason through rational thought when making sense of the hurdles and challenges that one comes across in daily living. This is learning

Psychosocial stress must be addressed through logic and reason and this takes empathy and it takes compassion to regulate sympathetic arousal. It's not the other way around. Deindividuated individual from detaching in a state of repressive apathy emotio ally reactive struggling with emotional reactivity in the mode of impulse and chaos as a biological altered state of consciousness resulting in what many call the maladaptive stress response. This is a serious choice to detach from self. This altered state affects same quadrants of the brain (circuitry between these 2 brain regions) that beck es hijacked with people that experience PTSD. This is a big deal because when trauma and stress impacts this circuitry the brain changes, the person is not the same anymore; and it is very difficult to treat and get the individual back to homeostasis. 

Paul Conti says. Trauma fogs the mirror and distorts the window. We then can't see ourselves as we are, and we cannot view the differences of others as anything  other than harmful.

The neurochemical regulate and modulate behavior and we'll being is promoted NY a higher conscious self and a side core identity.

It is the higher executive center that processes and organizes information, and this is when it is the predominantly functioning part of brain. The integrative ability for the OFC to pull info out and store info in the hippocampus of the limbic are is highest when th fear center (amygdala) in the limbic area is silenced and kept at bay by logic thought and reason. When doing So the ofc is able (capability of the person) to create more neural pathways (neural circuitry) to other parts of limbic area (reward center) and more regions of the brain for example. Anterior singulate (empathy), basil ganglia (intuition) this being spirit and the gift that leads internal stability and gut feeling of instct that aligned with insula cortex the just knowing for natural intuition intuitive decision making processes. Functioning can take place when the neurons are functioning smoothly.  

Ears are ringing good doused me with some more of Luna's magic potion. potionI guess he'll sleep better tonight.

All this pathology needed acted out in the form of adverse behaviors addictions to try to seek referendum to an otherwise imbalanced self.

All the traits and tendencies are gone your all good now see a brighter future after hitting Perrin for the thousandth time?

Sent from my Verizon, Samsung Galaxy smartphone

-------- Original message --------

From: perrin41@aol.com

Date: 12/12/23 5:54 AM (GMT-08:00)

To: perrin41@aol.com

Subject: Re: being hunted

another radiated experience towards me still under siege and threat. You can tell someone to stop but like Donald trump he is still running because with that power who is going to stop him from being evil when he is in power. THE NEED FOR ME BEING UNDER A CONSTANT BARRAGE OF ATTACKS TO MY HEALTH (DAILY SINCE THE OFFICERS WERE REMOVED FROM DUTY IN PALMDALE)

and (since the big arrest for the guy that shot the officer in Palmdale) since this the extremity has even escalated more. What is the big need for this to try to cancel me out? 

I know enough of this criminal enterprise that I am even unaware of  of all the more of it that it is actually happening and that so many others are unaware of these evils as well so the reason of the intensity is fear of being caught? 

Just seems fishy. I am being under a barrage of minute instances where I try for food and water they keep getting me. I am going to be like that otto guy that was destroyed by the regime dictator in North

Korea. This program is very well organized, calculated, and dead on accurate it seems all the time. 

there has been enough time for it to evolve

I see these instances and the harm that it can cause others as on a larger scale that took place on one shift of interrogating terrorist in Guantánamo Bay incident. I see a very big problem fear and threat and i am not safe due to the extremes escalating against U.S. citizens. Someone in power wanting more and more, but the volition is of emotionality that is ill-fated and uncontrolled for example, addicted to emotions anger, disgust, antipathy that has escalated to the extent of evil for quite some time now.   

On Friday, December 8, 2023 at 12:06:34 PM PST, perrin41 <perrin41@aol.com> wrote:

After a post yesterday morning at 10 AM

3:00 AM wake up experiencing retribution having side effects.  

Not enough to oppress my life and potential

Believe the side effects from what has been being directed towards me as water & food assaults will have negative implications in the form of long term health effects.

Sent from my Verizon, Samsung Galaxy smartphone

-------- Original message --------

From: perrin41@aol.com

Date: 12/8/23 11:28 AM (GMT-08:00)

To: PERRIN PEREZ <perrin41@aol.com>, perezperrin333@gmail.com

Subject: being hunted

this recorded

 from March 9, 2021

being hunted

well the day has not even begun and it is an early start waking 5:00 am with ears ringing and stomach hurting. Something I notice from slight caustic  encounter. The experience is frustrating because it is a God given inalienable right to have access to basic necessities of living that are needed for survival. It is shocking the tactics of the current administration at &#@! can choose who they like or not, and are driven in no refrain using their power and resources to hunt people, down, use their power to control them and make the citizen a slave to their very own cause. We may be a dander to others, but act in the name of public safety. Why love when you can create something to hate. Control oil control nations, control food control people. For me I understand that government units are oversized and this outfit shows all the signs as being as such. Never have been issued a warning, yet being harassed incessantly for a very long period of time is insanity. I am fricken hated with a passion by these people and treated as such. I am sure to treat people as I have been you would have to dehumanize them first and then act accordingly. Dang this guy got a huge budget, and he sure loves being the hunter.  It is a surprise he claims to follow ethics, yet gives reason of the anxiousness and aggressiveness due to insecurity of making  and following corrupt practices. This man is dangerous it is sad in a world and time we need diversity and acceptance this man is such a bully, cruel, angry, resentful, vindictive, neurotic, and evil human being.

this was recorded March 9, 2021 today follow up 12/8/23a personality will unfold through the job, one way to tell a personality is to look at traits that are long enduring behaviors that are exhibited by the person.A post yesterday morning at 10:00 AM I go over the changes in neurological implications that a person develops that occur due to a result of their mindset and the environment influences that they are in.Neuroplasticity means the brain is malleable to change and consciousness comes about by how your mind works in sync with the environment stress or not to then experience a functional or dysfunctional self. This is recognized by an overall workup of being human functioning. For example, having a moral conscience right and wrong from the post yesterday and looking at the Goleman video depends on what parts of the brain are more functional and at what level the circuitry of the brain is connecting between these localized brain areas. You can bet a dysfunctional person will be wired and have brain activity higher in one area just a functional person will be in another.This is the science, and it is the science that will become more prevalent in the behavioral sciences as the practices become more established and widely spread in modern medicine.  Look at this post from 2021 and I am still experiencing these practices under new leadership here in LB, but these were practices that were happening in 2007. Widespread the leader now at a new organization and what is happening there is what was not suppossed to be happening here (but it was) and he goes to the new organization claiming to get rid of the practices there that were happening here already, but these practices are still happenning here???????Comon sense and any reasonable amount of logic would tell you that if this leader that went to a job to get rid of practices (like officers that on the side have abusive aggressive practices) meaning duties supposedly approved by the leader that are away from policy and ethics.Tthen if these type practices were happening at the department that he was at before he went to the new job claiming to stop these practices then at least when he went to the new job to stop these practices that if he was true to his word (as a means to the public in the campaign for the position) (the word he used on national television to stop these practices) for accepting his new highly paid position then you would at least think that these practices would stop (when he left his old position in the city that he used to work for), but these practices have not stopped at the old city these practices have become worse here in his old city (once he got comfortable in his new leadership role at LACSD).1) Why? trying to cover it up here so that the new practices can take place there? 2) Just hate and have to bully people here since you cannot get away with it there?it is a personality that has evolved maladaptively over time to experience disorders due to the brains adaption to adverse development scenarios in a high stress environment that led to negative emotion at the innate level therefore lackluster coping skills and now a compromised functioning individual.in other words, the behaviors he is exhibiting is pathology: doing all the wrong things for the wrong reasons.  And this is the mess.Why am I still the target of his band of brothers a pseudo kinship and me the pseudo speciated outgroup member seen as less that human deserving to be done away with by these fellows that take all of this into account on their own accord?  The judgement placed upon me, the outcome that I deserve, and the action taken upon to bring about upon me. Polarized group in a groupthink scenario derived by a leader that is dysregulated so restraint was lowered immediately when he took over in 2015 and arousal was increased. The intensity grew slowly over the time period till 2021 when the leader left the organization.Couldn't cope without the behaviors the adverse actions placed upon me where to fulfill the needs of the personality that became more and more.  The question is why he lives for it and cannot live without it?My posting yesterday speaks of brain area's and when disconnected as Goleman say's an individual cannot differentiate between right and wrong. Not seeing a future like taking a year off looking at what worked and what didn't in a career and what someone will bring to the table in the new organization is everything to do with an anticipated future. Anticipated future aligned with imagination, creativity, and extended memory are all tools of cognitive capacity.One thing that going int an organization that I am aware of is the previous leader put into place a policy that is against the use of outlaw practices.clearly the question is behind the scenes are underground outlaw practice in the form of contracted services, and or deputies and officers even here in long beach acting out of job procedure to handle matters under the discretion of a leader that cannot otherwise refrain from doing so. That is even in the matter of his own word in the obligation of even accepting his new position.

I AM EXPERIENCING OTHERWISE. I HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING OTHERWISE AND I WILL CONTINUE EXPERIENCING OTHERWISE. NOTHING WILL CHANGE THE INDIVIDUAL IS INCAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING ANY DIFFERENT HE IS A LOST SOUL AND A LOST CAUSE. HE HAS NO INTEGRITY, NO HUMAN DIGINITY, NO MORAL CONSCIENCE, SHOWS NO SIGNG OF REMORSE, IS EVIL, HE IS AN IMPULSIVE PSYCOPATH, A THREAT TO THE MENTAL HEALTH OF HIS ORGANIZATION, HIMSELF, MEMBERS IN SOCIETY, AND AMERICA AT THIS TIME IS BORDERLINE IN MENTAL HEALTH OUTCOMES AND CANNOT AFFORD FOR A LEADER TO BE IN PLACE THAT JUST CANNOT RECOGNIZE THE DIFFERENCE.

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