(126) just reminiscing

I have some pretty cool hobbies. The going back to school and laying a foundation to build upon has led me to understanding the behavioral neurosciences through a broader lens. Another positive aspect of this is the spirit/volition is that of a higher drive that of which are goals that go beyond my own self but for all intents and purposes are aligned to my very values as a person. Generativity is caring, happiness, and contentment which are aligned to positive physicochemical balance from mental health development and maintain a healthy interoceptive/ exteroceptive balance to keep mental health in a positive form of development moving forward in one’s own daily living. Development takes place over a lifetime and the mind is like a garden that needs constant upkeep for reinforcement (internal locus of control), identity, and to keep balance over external events to maintain healthy coping skills in the social emotional learning process in the reciprocal win/win exchange with others. A process that necessitates moral reasoning skills, empathy, compassion, a solid core identity aligned to a genuine authentic self, and through these variables and the values and principles that a person uses as a compass to guide them in the decision making processes to allow for self-coherence when difficult circumstances arise. Preventing what Jonathan Haidt terms as cognitive strain from when a person lacks self- coherence and experiences internal conflicts when they do not understand themselves is important. The ability to possess wisdom- sapience is synonymous with Carl Jung process of individuation, ian McGilchrist developing the integration of the right and left hemisphere, and Rotter’s reinforcement (1954) which all unite as a whole and are synonymous with George Kelly Cognitive psychology. The process of rational thinking using the variables above to take cognitive control over emotion in the process of interactions with others to think objectively, develop intuition by being attuned to your rapidly evolving cognition, intuition, and emotion by looking within and deciding to spend life as a making the world a better place. This starts within and projects outward as we become intellectually and emotionally mature. It is important to remember empathy is an innate ability it is not an emotional response, in fact empathy allows for deeper awareness of others emotion as a part of having control over our own.

Behavioral neuroscience helps understand how we need to get to that place of sapience through individuality of character, self-awareness, self-reflecting, into the framework we have (variables above to have a higher accountability of self so that an objective depiction of reality  can arise. One thing not mentioned above is that Haidt also explains the need to use multiple fields and discipline is needed for a thorough understanding when dealing with the complexity of the interactions with others relating to the human condition. Preventing going down the road of burnout should be a priority since leads to a progression of negative emotions like becoming addicted to disgust, repressive apathy, and evil. In this is a lackluster ability of being able to possess sapience the maladaptive stress response pathology reside in a heightened nervous system. Using metaphors, categorical thinking lacks an ability of self-transcendence due to semantic barriers hyper focused on fear and threat in a symbolic context. Cognitive bias, stimulus generalization, confirmation bias, post-hoc rationalizing, and the having to be right is personalized due to a disconnect from the maladaptive stress response. Disinhibition look it up, the contrast of looking within to make meaning (lose this ability, also may have never developed) is to not have moral reasoning skills. This is a big problem because this is the working memory, Daniel Golman explains that in this an amygdala hijack that takes place a person cannot learn, cannot see the future, is stuck in the moment and cannot see the big picture. Nevertheless, narcissism and psychopathy is the inability to see past ones own self, and traits and behaviors that are synonymous with early life stress trauma and a higher cumulative effect of stress over a lifetime that would contribute to a cascade of development issues. Behavioral conditions that present that are more pathological in later life scenarios often come and are associated with unhealthy experiences in the attachment phase or epigenetic change at the physiological level due to multi-generational trauma being passed down.

The outcome is a whole host of issues a lot having to do with the reciprocal exchange with others stems from being deindividuated, highly competitive to the degree of not seeing people but people below to just be used for their own success. I me Perrin have a blog from being incessantly bullied for years. Here is the 1st blog from March of 2021:

well the day has not even begun and it is an early start waking 5:00 am with ears ringing and stomach hurting. Something I notice from slight caustic  encounter. The experience is frustrating because it is a God given inalienable right to have access to basic necessities of living that are needed for survival. It is shocking the tactics of the current administration at &#@! can choose who they like or not, and are driven in no refrain using their power and resources to hunt people, down, use their power to control them and make the citizen a slave to their very own cause. We may be a dander to others, but act in the name of public safety. Why love when you can create something to hate. Control oil control nations, control food control people. For me I understand that government units are oversized and this outfit shows all the signs as being as such. Never have been issued a warning, yet being harassed incessantly for a very long period of time is insanity. I am fricken hated with a passion by these people and treated as such. I am sure to treat people as I have been you would have to dehumanize them first, and then act accordingly. Dang this guy got a huge budget, and he sure loves being the hunter.  It is a surprise he claims to follow ethics, yet gives reason of the anxiousness and aggressiveness due to insecurity of making  and following corrupt practices. This man is dangerous it is sad in a world and time we need diversity and acceptance this man is such a bully, cruel, angry, resentful, vindictive, neurotic, and evil human being.

I had no idea until just going to open this that in the editing late last night I had put the person in questions name on the header of the blog. Have to change that. As one gets more power often this may come with a more inflated ego (what many claim as the most dangerous of the human condition), and I can see why. I have found that the more inflated the ego the more ego-gratification a person needs, so for what I placed above in 2021 in March for it to escalate not just painting the person black, coloring all areas of my life, it has been underground from the beginning. Isolating a person takes a lot of manipulation in the persons life. And this guy has had 13 suicides in his organization and looking at people working mandatory overtime.

You think this is personalized with him, politically motivated a person with a cognitive and intellectually sound autobiographical self- creativity, imagination, extended memory, reason, language and an anticipated future they would see so far past themselves with so much possibilities and ambition, positive regard hope that would be so driven when in balance that he’d be able to sit and spell it all out, especially with a whole career of learning and positive growth, right?

I am not a activist or a shit talker, I have been run through the grinder mill and have done nothing but psychoeducate myself, to look within and find acceptance of someone else’s suffering regardless of how they have treated me. In the meantime, the hard work the observation, seeking objective truth, holding a higher bar of accountability, what I bring to the table from exhibiting all the variables above and living it in my daily life, I am blessed to experience a higher autobiographical self emotionally intellectually. The goal I set going back to school connects to where I am at today almost twenty years later, especially with the tools gained and for what I bring to the table for who I am, what I have learned, and the gratitude of wanting to give back in anywhere that is part of my personality it can be offered for others, society and anywhere and everywhere that someone can benefit them to get more out of their life at the conscious level as well.

This is a 1st draft written out of my stream of consciousness no polishing editing or proofreading. One of my goals was to take a clinical approach to counseling to treat type 4 DSM cases. I find it important to halt multigenerational trauma from being passed down to another generation, but also to halt new progressions of multi-generational trauma from beginning.