(137) THE BLOGS NEVER EXISTED TILL HEAVY BETRAYEL TRAUMA TOOK PLACE IN THE FORM OF PSYCHOLOGICAL/EMOTIONAL ABUSE. STILL ONGOING TODAY

Exclusionary practices are a form of negative reinforcement that stem from burnout, disgust and apathy that lead to categorical thinking which is seeing problems not people. It is a mindset that often from a superiority complex, status orientated person utilizes hierarchical thinking (social and dominance hierarchies) when lacking a solid core identity their pathology gets all muddled up belligerently against others. In brief I have made it clear where I am sure that these practices are coming from in the years since keeping the blog. I am intellectually and emotionally mature, I play the guitar every day for 5+ years I am a happy person with an anticipated future with a business, home that is paid for, goals hope and vision to have a future relationship. My studies have beneficial aspects that are aligned with me as a person, goals that I set in 2006 to go back to school and learn how as  a counselor I could give back to help others. Now I understand issues at the micro/macro level through my life experience and knowledge gained to make a difference in positive ways wherever it may be needed.  I once again had a very negative experience and another time again I have to continue recording in the blog it is not like this is what I signed up for it is someone else that cannot put his focus towards his responsibility that so many need and are counting on but his mind is everywhere else than where it needs to be and this is dangerous. Whether you want to call it sadistic authoritarianism or malignant narcissism when psychopathy evolves this disorder is known as a disease state rather than a personality disorder. This is due to the pathology (doing all the wrong things for the wrong reasons) delusional state of being out of ones head, out of sync with reality. Now in despair the vindictive nature has become a vendetta of an otherwise situation that a person, me, is just trying to bring awareness that a person is causing a lot more harm than good which he cannot see it, nor can he regulate the emotion at the realm of these unfair actions towards others. Studies show that when a person experiences damage to the pathways of the ventral medial frontal cortex that they make horrible immoral decisions that are beyond awareness. Like the practices and views I am experiencing, and the threats to my health as these practices have become more extreme through the years, it also is connected to a person as they get power. The inflated ego is another concern since many claim that the inflated ego is the most dangerous of the human condition, and for what I am experiencing in his inability to run his organization effectively it could give a good reason why.

See the attached video that Neuroendocrinologist and neuroscientist Robert Sapolsky explains about where behaviors from a top leader may be coming from socially and at the neural level, which also regards the danger a person poses when they have (28 min into video) damage to their ventral medial frontal cortex.

Robert Sapolsky Father-Offspring Interviews #71

https://youtu.be/6yxpZgNFkbI?si=IoRBF2jYTghS60BJ

Please watch this video beginning from 16:30 to the end. It is important to be aware that the previous leader at LACSD had a policy against the use of outlaw practices. The new leader at LACSD in which trends and experiences I have encountered over time show that this is who is responsible for the negligent underground hate filled practices I experience practically on a daily basis. All breaking rights protected under the constitution-God given inalienable rights. Nonetheless, this leader accepted a position in 2022 in the context to address this issue (gangs, underground practices), yet condones and partakes in the very practices that Villanueva had a policy in place prohibiting the use of (outlawed practices). Saying one thing and doing another is a postmarked sign of ventral medial frontal cortex damage. Allowing these practices that are away from the professional responsibility that is required to be upheld are practices that are unethical, inhumane, and pose a threat to a peoples physical and mental health is also a signs of the behaviors that would be portrayed by someone with a damaged ventral medial prefrontal cortex. Hate should not be allowed by leadership in the LACSD. Integrity is an ethical character value that LACSD has held in pride, and it is in this pretense that moral decision making should be held and upkept. And all this talk of coverups, oversight and a lack of transparency-

 If something happens to me and my health then I too was cancelled out under a program that I have tried to bring attention to, a program that was actually used to cancel me out. Now he is trying to set me up any other way that he can. This is wrong and if it seems crazy then maybe brain damage from an aggressive high stress state that leads to ventral medial frontal cortex damage is one thing to look at as part of a mental health issue that the person in question may be struggling with. Furthermore, as part of the blame of a lot of negative stuff taking place behind the scenes that goes unseen but the consequences exist and it is the people he is supposed to protect that are paying the price. 

For too many reasons that can be listed here, my studies in human conscious run deep in the mental health arena that I have continually tried to share concepts and ideologies from my life experience in my blog. My studies I wanted to design a human metric on measuring individual differences of human consciousness. So far I got stuck in a greedy political mess, of agendas, and superficial subjective narratives, seen as a threat by those with extreme views, not open, not agreeable, nor even conscientious due to the limitations of their own minds. Some are so far out of touch and dissociated (apathy) from self that there is no deeper meaning seeking just repression, and it’s all about me or retribution. No solid core identity or a dynamic or framework of reinforcement to align and hold oneself accountable too isolated from affect/feeling instead.

(Rotter 1954), coined the term locus of control and reinforcement which he found both to be synonymous, while the external locus of control never comes from a good place and never ends up in a good place either. Steve Covey “Seven habits of Highly Effective People” book is all about effective leadership requires an internal locus of control (inside-out) living, and contrasts its negative counterpart external locus of control on page 43 when he talks about how this outside in approach is ineffective and that he worked with business executives, college students, church and civic groups, families and marriage partners. And in all of his experiences that he has never seen lasting solutions to problems, lasting happiness, and success that come from the outside- in.

What he has seen result from the outside-in paradigm is unhappy people who feel victimized and immobilized, who focus on the weaknesses of other people and the circumstances they feel are responsible for their own stagnant situation. Further he shares on page 44 is the dominant paradigm of outside -in that each group is convinced that the problem is "out there" and if  "they" (meaning others) would "shape up" or  suddenly "ship out" of existence the problem would be solved. In my research and from positive experiences in sports, business, creating who I am and why in daily living comes from inside-out approach of reinforcement, which is development, learning. confidence, character building. The difference between which locus of control a person prescribes too outside-in/external validation, versus inside-out/internal validation really is a factor of ones functional state and neural development that contributes to the volition of a person being a highly effective functioning individual in their life or not. And due to this the difference between internal versus external inside versus outside in approach to living is the first concept I began with when beginning the design work (human metric) as a diagnostic tool for measuring individual difference of human consciousness. This is a big deal we are experiencing a meaningless crisis due to stress getting the best which is leading to think lessness crisis and ruining the potential for people to get more productivity, more happiness, chemically balanced at the neural level, better health, focus, concentration, learning, higher creativity, imagination, extended memory, critical thinking skills, positive anticipated future beyond self with endless possibilities to be excited about, and just better general life satisfaction out of our lives in the relationships that we share conscientiously with ourselves and others.

The lack of an ability to feel is a life in pain. You will see overcompensating, defense mechanisms lowered restraint, instead increased arousal, unhealthy coping skills, identity issues (i.e.,false self, ego) and to a certain degree of pathology being prone to adverse behaviors, acting on impulse in risky behavior, and experiencing emotional dysregulation rather than emotional intelligence that will in turn lead to addictions and behaviors that can become vindictive, evil, and even sadistic.                                                                                                 

I am concerned due to the spreading hate and more a crisis of mental health arising affecting people in society, workers, and their families a pandemic of multi-generational trauma being passed down for years to come as a result. For Christ’s sake look at what I have had to keep track of and how my life has been completely manipulated and been screwed up of as a result. Pure craziness and insanity that never ends really is a condition that will not go away and as you will see and are seeing it will only get worse. Living a movement to distinguish themselves, an outside- in paradigm that since everything outside of me is in control therefore I must micro-manage everything outside of me through this lens so that I can sense that I have some kind of control.

There is an illusion of complexity taking place here a form of being that is not really being at all. I dug deep, tried harder, and finished my bachelor’s degree later in life after the suggestion of a guidance counselor and understand human development and consciousness at the deeper level. And after graduating in my off time I worked even harder researching and studying to grow off the foundation of learning from which I gathered from my many previous years of study. I am blessed it was a lot of sacrifice, yet a rewarding experience and without this knowledge to understand what is taking place of someone else that cannot stop hating on me, and at the mental health level of where such negative behavior comes from I’d be so dumfounded and confused. I know this much though, Luna will not give up his power easily he is subsumed by it and he will do anything (politicize and criminalize) it takes or what he must to hold onto it.

There is no way that in America if we are the leader of the free world that the human organism should not flourish. One of the hallmarks of a democratic society is that anyone can pretty much say anything about anyone. I started writing a blog years ago when what I was experiencing was crossing of boundaries and manipulation was taking place in track of my life to keep me from positive growth, and hold me as a surplus person, a political tool a slave for someone else’s greedy, selfish aspirations. It got so bad that I had to keep track of what was happening underground that I have experienced as illegitimate behavior from an authority figure that was abusing others through the position of power that holds. Do we know who this person is and how he really acts behind the scenes, and does he hold a high bar of accountability to himself of his own word and does the same towards others as well? Things are bad I never just post I will email myself of an experience and will say if I encounter any further negative experiences then I will post to blog, and it always comes to posting due to bullying others that is just a way of life for this person. My studies show and in my own life experience the human organism in its higher effective/optimal functional state that it is 100% self-governing in ways that I can unpack for you, coincidently this is 100 percent synonymous with the experiment of democracy which is an experiment in self-governance. Life should never become a knock down drag out brawl that becomes a competition that has to have winners and losers. Like despair and a lack of integrity, you must try to ruin other peoples lives as a remedy to cover up your own paranoia of your horrible behavior and practices that became escalated as a group in the inhumane and unethical treatment towards others. If so our experiment of democracy is failing along with this is our failing of a people to bring out the best of what we have been given an ability to be competitive with ourselves to be the best we can be is not a social reward to show how good we are at the expense of others. Above and beyond this is creating environments that allow for human development that bring out the best rather than the worst of others by being self-aware and genuine. Staying in alignment to ones individuality of character and the humane condition allowing for a growth mindset to evolve to function in flow state/self-actualization due to a positive form of growth and development over ones lifetime should be our utmost priority.  It goes above and beyond just being right or wrong it begins with being true to yourself.